Would like to share  and yes find it hard to write what is there to share, in a space of 'no mind' it does not help with this part. but to stay away from expressing does not support you seeking to find this place within.

To awake to watch, 'Dianne does this', 'this is how Dianne lives', 'oh and now this is what is happening', lots of spaces in between, lots of floating of not being here. Lovely blissful energy. And then it continued and continued with bits coming in, a feeling of total freedom within and without a sense of space and overwhelming tears.

To touch a plant and tears just continued to fall as I was with the no separation of us. Sobbingly overwhelm to drink a glass of the rain water, that this was also me and drinking it into the body, the one that carries this being around that this being resides in.

No one there driving to Paul's place, then, oh driving, oh the leaf fell on the road, oh, oh, oh, then eventually getting to Paul's, which is only 1 km down the road. Ahhhh.

The slowing down is so full, the time is no more and the seeer and the seen are one, the peace that passeth all understanding, all there and more. beautiful. And this is what I didn't know I (Dianne) was seeking.

Dianne wanted a life without the dramas, without the stuff, without the ups and down, Dianne had lived 50 years the other way and was willing to look for another way to live.  And yes it popped in on Monday morning, the 'are you willing to let go Dianne". Half asleep half awake. then when I (?) did arise, oh, very different.

So the answer that all are seeking is..... all of what Paul [Lowe] says, without conditions, without the person...... Dianne stopping to go oh, but what about, oh if I can have this, if if if............. There is a totally being with  all of who you are, what you are. I saw my impatience and rightous-ness and so went to a very strange sharing group, where that was so in my face and so uncomfortable and sat with it, felt it. I stayed no changing to fit.

Dianne looked at the taking, the dishonesty and did not do that any more what ever it took to not be that way, no matter how uncomfortable it was, no matter the loss incurred no matter how much 'face I lost' no matter how uncontrolled it was. and being with not getting what Dianne wanted.

Until, and this is just the possibility, that she dissolved, Dianne no more was there. and now tears fall from these eyes in gratitude for
that process, gratitude for the man of amazing wisdom that lives down the road, deep appreciation for Dianne's willingness to go
beyond her, to feel the being that is here now is just such a huge over whelming feeling of love.

In loving care to you all