Hi love …

Good analogy you sent about the illusion of being in control:
Being on a carnival ride with a false steering wheel,
and thinking you are steering.

(Incidentally, did you see that old doco of Shirley MacLaine in South
America?
She was in a truck going along a winding mountain road and the driver,
a Shaman, let go of the steering wheel - and the truck steered itself.)

Sorry to hear about your fall.
I had one recently as well.

I think such events could be part of something bigger
(in fact I think everything is) - release, and an opportunity for change
to happen.
Same happens with surgery and broken bones.

I think something is evolving,
and we may need a bit of shaking up to pop through.
Maybe we need be more  sensitive to any changes in perspective?


Two more things about change.
That great Teacher Gurdjieff used to talk about the  incremental,
and how in an octave scale a semi-tone is needed
to go beyond a certain point. I think bumps and shocks do that.
Trouble is, after the shift we look to go back to ‘normal’ -
instead of being open to a whole new perspective - whatever it is.

And on that topic, that is why I keep reminding you
about your attitude towards security and money.
Of course it is understandable that we want to have money,
and be comfortable.
(Although there are very many different levels to what is ‘sufficient.’)

As I see it, if there is any holding, of any sort, it is in the way of our
maximum potential.
If ‘existence’ sees us wanting money, it supports us in the ‘wanting’ -
thus not in the getting?

Krishna Murti said: “Unconditional awareness.”
The emphasis is on unconditional.

Kabir is quoted as saying: “When the mind decides to go beyond the mind,
it always holds on to one thing.”

Happy un-holding ...